Forever, All, and Always

I will be thankful for:

1) My friends. I don't know where I would be without you. Probably one of those crazy girls that doesn't talk to anyone and just sits in the corner of the room doing nothing. I probably would never have done Drama Club, or I would have, but stayed backstage and said nothing. I would never have joined Book Club, would never have elected to apply to Governor's School, and would never have stuck it out in chorus with Mrs. Young. Thanks so much to all of you, Caroline, Danielle, Chloe, Allison, Courtney, Jessica, and you, too, Emilea and Anna.

1a) I did this last year, listed everything about why I love my friends so much, but there were a few people that weren't around last year that I'd like to say thanks to, whom I'm grateful for having:

Jessica--I don't even have words. I have tears and that hard, stiff knot that appears in your throat when you aren't really crying, but you feel all happy-cry-y and you just love someone so much and are so thankful they are there. You know what I mean? Yeah, that's Jess. I love how she's just always showing up at my house whenever. Just comes by at midnight to bring some cookie dough and some advice. She's always there to talk to, and she's always there to make me laugh. Our epic battles shall continue throughout the rest of the year. I'll miss her so much when she's gone, but I'm glad she won't be too far away.

Anna--Oh, what to say about my nerdfighting ninja. Other than I can't wait to see her tomorrow. And that I'm so happy that I wrote DFTBA on my hand that first day, or else we never would have become friends like we did. I'm sure we would have talked, hung out, and ate together, but we never would have been able to bond over Hank's gothic phase and all the other awesome things about Nerdfighting. I love that she was always around when I needed her to be during those two weeks. I love that she came and hung out in my room and held out even though my roommate was rather psycho. I love that she has the strength to withstand Shelby even though I barely did. I love that she hung around while I packed so that we could make the "echolocation video" that I still reenact every once in a while. I love that I can mug her anytime and know she won't be offended. I love that she's such an amazing writer and makes me want to be better, because her words are so beautiful. I love you, Anna.

Emilea--It's been just barely a year since she crashed our blogging party and made the two of us into three. Just a little over a year have I know this wonderful person that is always there to say something amazing when you feel like the stupidest person in the world. I hate how she thinks so little of herself sometimes because I think so much of her. Even if Caroline hadn't been practically staring her down that first day, I probably would have recognized her, and even if I didn't, I would have still become close with her, because she's just that amazing of a person. I love that she's always comment-ready on Don't Fret, even though it takes me ages to comment. (I'm so sorry about that, by the way). I love that she says wtc instead of wtf. I love that she's such a great person and pictures her family adopting us next year if we get in to GS. I love that even though you're miles and miles away, I still think of you as one of my best friends. =) ♥

2) Thanks also be to my chance to meet all the awesome people I did this summer at Academy, and for being able to experience two weeks as incredible as that. I've never had so much fun in my life, and never become that close to people I just met in that short of an amount of time. I think I'm closer to you two (In case you were wondering, and I'm sure you weren't, I mean Anna and Emilea) than I am to some of my friends that I live near and go to school with everyday. I love you guys so much, and if you hadn't been at Governor's School, I never would have become as outspoken and crazy as I am. Being forced to make friends that quickly made me a new person. Plus, I love all of you for being as awesome as you are. I can't believe I got to do that. (special thanks to Caroline and her mom for being so awesome in making it so I could go.)

3) Just for being able to live, to do the things I do, to be accomplished in at least something. To have plans weeks in advance and know they won't change. The security in the fact that there's always something for me to do, somewhere.

4) Though I may hate it 90% of the time, I'm thankful for how my world is changing. For how everything around me is changing and how much I've changed in the last year. I can't believe the differences in my life as opposed to last thanksgiving, when the only thing I could think of that I was thankful for was my friends. I can't believe that most of these changes are for the better.


Today's dinner/lunch/feast went a lot smoother than last year's and all the years before it. It went quicker and is nearly over. I'm sure later on, after all the adults (only three, but so what) have taken a nap, we'll play a card game, maybe watch a movie, and that I'll go to bed realizing that for all the work that went into it, and all the people that didn't come, it turned out pretty well. The only people that ended up coming were my mom, Jack, Amy, me, and Jack's friend Robert who didn't really have much of anywhere else to go to. The people that usually come that didn't were Natasha, Robert (my step-brother), my Uncle Marshall, Aunt Sylvia, and random friend that either Natasha or Amy brings along. Without all these people here, it was different, and weird, but nice nonetheless.

I hope everything went well with you, and Happy Thanksgiving

Heather

words I've used before on all the wrong faces