Must find refuge...:(

OK, once again sitting here with nothing in the world to do except let my fingers steadily type away at the keyboard

I would read but what would be the point. It's a great book--Suspicious Origin--but I'm going to be all upset tomorrow when I actually have school and I need something to read to get through the miserable existence that is my second block.

It's absolutely amazing how the world has become so abysmally asinine. That's the reason for taking refuge in books, where I may actually find a big word or two that would otherwise not be spoken in any of my classes

Other than chorus. That is to say where Caroline will be there, who doesn't hate it when you use big words like 'subterfuge' or 'unequivocally'<--a new favorite

But, alas, idiocy seems to be the new thing these days--like hollister, or baby-doll dresses, or ballet flats<--not exactly sure those are the best examples but my brain is drained of all references for the time being

Of course, "do the dishes" "clean the bathroom" "stop having an attitude"--things said to me in the last 12 hrs by my parents none of them fully applying to me seeing as it is amy's job to do the dishes at this point in time, I cleaned the bathroom 3 days ago, I don't have an attitude at this particular moment but...hey that's the norm for what parents say to their teenage children, despite their children not actually having and 'attitude'

Going to go hole up in my room, listening to music, cleaning, reading, watching horrible TV that has been corrupted by the asinine world mentioned above, whichever I feel like doing when I actually get to my room on the other side of the house.

It seems so far away right now...well...
I'm out
luvya

Poem Needs Opinions!!

ok...so...I'm sitting here at my computer on a Monday morning at 10:27 a.m.

Obviously I have nothing to do on my day off from school....

so...I'm going to put one of my poems on here...tell me if it sounds stupid with the rhyming thing because every time I read it my opinion varies
OK, here it is:

A tortured Mind, Body, and Soul,

But that isn't the worst part,

The last one is painful,

A tortured Heart.

A Heart breaking,

Pain that has no end,

The pain you caused,

To a heart unable to mend.

When you walked right by,

Without a smile towards me,

But a smile to her,

That's what killed me.

She received your love,

Warm hand and warm heart,

I received you civility,

Cold shoulder and cold heart.

If only I could switch,

Her for me,

Warm for cold,

And receive more than just courtesy.

To be held by you,

To come first in your eyes,

To be loved by you,

Would be the greatest prize.

It would stop the tears,

It would kill the pain,

It would mend my heart,

I would be happy again.

~Heather~

♥

OK, see, that time it sounded good to me...hmm...idk

opinions please!!!!!!!!! this is important!!!!!

OK I'm out for now

luvya

How to Deal...with spanish

OK so what do you do when you have a teacher that you hate with such passion that you literally cringe at the sound of her voice?? What do you do when the class that she teaches annoys you as well??

while I'm not an expert on this because I'm not exactly sure what to do myself, I just cope. Now Spanish is one of the easiest subjects you can take freshman year. Its totally an easy A. Since I've already learned half of it in Middle School, it makes it even easier. But--and here comes the problem--the rest of the students(with few exceptions) in my class are complete--for lack of a better word that could accurately describe the depth of their idiocy--morons.

Now, I guess you can see the problem(can't you?) OK maybe I should go into this some more...hmm...well my teacher, Ms. Sieradzki (Sir-rad-ski), is new. She's only ever taught middle school students and only for maybe two years(shes only 26). So when she came to our school she wasn't used to high school students, and boy was she in for a big surprise. In our class we have a few, shall we say, imbeciles. They scream and talk(and occasionally sing--badly) while she tries, without success, to teach us new things.

The things she tries to teach us are things I learned in kindergarten, so my focus drifts in and out as I listen to her talk in the disgustingly annoying Greenville(eww) accent. Now let me describe this accent to you...she says y'all and you guys's but both with a really southern redneck twang. Then she says tomorrow and tall and a few other words in a New York, Yankee, northerner accent. Mix those two together and you get one of the most annoying pronunciations I've ever come across. So when she's telling us things I already know I'm even more annoyed because of her voice.

Since our class is misbehaved, she yells at us a lot. But she is always accusing somebody of doing something she has no proof they did or any reason to believe they did it.

One day, a cell phone went off in class, and she automatically assumed--she didn't even look up-- that it was Leonardo's* phone. She yelled at him and told him she was going to take it away. Now Leonardo* is black(no offense to anyone reading this). Well it turns out it wasn't his phone, he wasn't anywhere near the sound of the cell phone to begin with. It was Edwardo's* phone, and Edwardo* is white. When she found out it was his phone she just told him to put it away and not let her see or hear it again. And another one of the students, Pablo*, always has his phone out, and she always just asks him to put it away.That didn't go over too well.

Also, this other kid, Pedro*(who is black as well), hasn't done anything wrong, right. Well one day(I wasn't there so this wont be detailed) the whole class was misbehaving, especially Pablo* and she got really mad and said that they had to copy words out of the Spanish-English dictionary for the rest of the class. Pedro* laughed at something and she wrote him up. Pablo*, however, was talking and making noise and texting on his cell phone and being otherwise rude, and she did nothing to him. Then there was another incident where Ms. Sieradzki had an emergency and had to talk on the phone to somebody. She left the room and, of course, Pablo* started yelling and being obnoxious. Pedro* tried to tell people to be quiet, but, other than that, he didn't say or do anything except have a quiet, whispered conversation with Aubrey*. When Ms. Sieradzki came back in she yelled at him and called him out and then left again. She did this once more and Pedro* started arguing back saying that he hadn't done anything wrong and that she shouldn't call him out again and that she wasn't going to win this argument and get him in trouble. She said he was being disrespectful and then she had a resource officer come in. The resource officer put Pedro* in handcuffs because Ms. Sieradzki told him that Pedro* had been doing or saying something(idk exactly what she said). She never once said anything to Pablo* about misbehaving.

She is one of the worst teachers I've ever had. I cant stand her at all. She cant teach. She cant spell. She cant do anything right. She is annoying. She is racist. She punishes the entire class for select people misbehaving. She is mean. I HATE HER.

this was longer than I thought it would be. I don't mean to sound like a crabby bitch or anything but if you knew this teacher you would hate her as much as I do. You don't even know the whole story. She is so cruel that she wants all the penguins in the world to be eaten by polar bears and she kicks her dog. Yea she is crazy.

well I'm out
luvya

*class spanish name has been used lol

The whole Edward/Jacob conflict

i have a very strong opinion with the books that i read...so in a case like this I want my opinion to be heard


There are these books--literary works of genius--by Stephenie Meyer called Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse(you've probably heard of them) and future books to come Breaking Dawn and Midnight Sun (and possibly--crossing my fingers--more)

If you haven't heard of them you may leave now(yes, I actually give you my permission to stop reading this) or if you havent gotten to new moon yet you can stop


in New Moon and Eclipse there is a whole conflict between Jacob Black and Edward Cullen. they both are in love with Bella Swan and Bells loves both of them(edward more though).

In Breaking Dawn(yet to come out) there is supposed to be an utmost and final decision--to be made by Bella--between them. Even though she already chose Edward I know there will be some sort of twist before they get married. This is my opinion on who Bella should chose. It wont make since(mostly) if you havent read the books, but here it is...

I'd rather her choose Edward because she loves him unfailingly and has since she first had an actual conversation with him. Her without him is a depressed, suicidal, demented, and otherwise unwhole empty shell of a human. She can't be without him. She is however able to be without Jacob. At first she wasnt because her subconscious mind knew that she loved him and wouldnt stop pestering her until her conscious mind admitted it, but now that she knows it, I think it will be easier for her to cope without him or at least just be friends with him until she turns into a vampire.

It sounds stupid and like it should be the other way around--where she knows she doesnt love him and is able to be without him instead of her knowing she does and now she can be without him--but it isnt and for the benefit of Edward she should remain with him because he basically has to live--in an odd since of the word, more like exist-- for eternity(or until he finds some way to kill himself*cough**cough**volturi**cough*) without her. If she leaves him, he will always remain heartboken and never be able to love someone in the same way or even at all but Jacob only has his life to live without her and he has the chance of imprinting on someone and loving them exceedingly more(in an indescribable way) than he loves Bella

Just look at Sam, Leah, and Emily. And even if Bella does wind up with Jacob(so not gonna happen) he still has the chance of imprinting and leaving her--again look at Sam, Leah, and Emily-- and Edward says that he'll be waiting in the wings for that but I dont think she can fall back that easily, especially if she has kids.

sorry this is so long i just have to have somewhere to rant. lol
Im out
luvya

definitely at a loss for words(doesnt happen much)

wow...now that I've made a blog intended to write down random thoughts about me, friends, books, movies, TB, and other completely random things, I have nothing that I want to write...hmm...ok let me think about this a second...

GOT IT--Mostly if you know me you know that this will be(as is self titled) a lot of angry rants, random babbles, funny stories, and just incessant typing that nobody needs to read

if I have something to say, it will be her, it will be long(most of the time), and it will (most likely) have no point at all

My friends know that I will babble about a previously discussed topic for hours so be warned that anything on her may end up being really really long

DISCLAIMER

what I say here is not to always be taken as seriously as I put is. I take things that shouldn't be taken seriously seriously(like fictional books).

I think I will end this here, however, because my food is almost ready and I, for one, love to eat especially chicken which is the particular food I am eating tonight(with potatoes YAY)

OK I'm out

luvya